i so have nothing to say.
i'm speechless.
uh wait.
i DO NOT have to say anything in the first place.
what am i thinking man.
kay anyway about today.
met ansley.
walked her over the bridge.
went jarrod's house.
just to wake him up.
his mother was up already when i got there.
then.. started to pour.
took his mom's car.
to the coffeshop.
ate.
his mother wanted to treat me.
BUT dont want lah. people shy. *blush.
YA RIGHT.
LOL she treated me drinks in the end lah.
if not very weird right. reject her.
came back home.
played a little dota.
watchedd tv.
and doze myself off to sleep.
dream alot i guess.
surprisingly sweet dreams.
woken up by a few calls BUT.
the dreams continued.
*dreamy look.
how i wish i could sleep my life away man.
LOL woke up at around 7.
was FORCED out to eat with my parents.
WHAT THE FUCK LAH.
eww. so hate hanging out with them.
then we were eating some steamboat thing.
then talked.
talked.
talked.
say so many things.
i was like thinking to myself.
'shoot me'
'someone pls throw this steamboat into my face'
wth. they are super naggified.
then i think they know about my dark secrets.
LOL !
they suspect lah.
they were like.. you know outside is very dirty world.
will get diseases.
can die one you know.
then obviously they were talking about SEX.
then i was like..
WHAT THE. HELLO. I HAVE MY OWN CLASS PRIDE AND DIGNITY.
WOULD YOU ALL JUST SHUT UP AND EAT.
*walks away.
actually i walk away is just to prevent them from asking me about my school work.
LOL but in the end.
i told them i am no longer in school.
but i think they tio shock.
they didnt dare to like nag alot?
which was like GOOD. no BEST.
the rest of the outing was like pretty boring.
i was sms-ing all the way.
LOL ohh.
and i was thinking.
as people get older and older.
they will think attempting suicide is stupid.
so piece of advice to people outside.
wanna suicide? DO IT NOW.
as for my case.
i dunno which to suicide.
i dont dare jump.
pain. and i have fear of heights.
eat loads of medicine? CRAZY.
i can hardly swallow ONE.
drink dettol? yucks. smells weird how to drink.
pls give me more suggestions in how to suicide thank you.
EXCEPT ANSLEY.
i know. bomb. yes yes. but still. more realistic. LOL



ohh before i go.
at this time of my life.
friends are crucial.
thank you ansley.
i love you.
(:



and i realised i didnt say alot of fucks.
damn it.
byebye. ((:




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